January 2011
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Lost In The World
I’m strongly contemplating leaving college and working in a profession that doesn’t necessarily require a degree. Was thinking about being a flight attendant, paramedic, missing persons.
Right now I feel as though I’m working toward nothing. I have no ultimate career aspirations. No dream job. I could almost care less what my job is, so long as I feel content with the life I...
Two years later: genderless to GTM
I’m glad I didn’t delete my Blogspot-turned-Wordpress account, because it’s interesting to look back and see what I wrote two years ago. It’s interesting to compare myself then to myself now, and realize how much I’ve changed and grown.
Genderless and Queer As Fuck (December 29, 2008)
That’s exactly what I am. I’ve come to that ultimate decision today. Screw this...
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Explaining transition: to an 8-year-old
Despite being an anti-holiday Scrooge, I went to a Christmas “party” at my aunt’s house. Many other people were in attendance, one of which was my 8-year-old cousin. Keep in mind that the last time I saw this cousin he was about 3, and I was still identifying as a girl.
Having come to terms that a majority of my family was either uninformed, confused, or choosing to ignore my...
And I am finally free
Spent time with an old friend today. We were quite the duo three years ago. People never saw one without the other, and if they did it was because we were either in class or working. Did almost everything together.
Then I moved away. As a civilian, he was unaccustomed to such things. Problems were had and a friendship, as it was then, was lost. He changed, I changed, he continued his life, I...
On: lesbian-to-gay trans men
Why do gay trans men come out as lesbians before coming out as trans, if they like boys?
While I feel as though this “switch” is something one must experience to fully comprehend, I have tried to explain the phenomenon in the best and least complex way possible. If it brings no understanding, I apologize.
The Problem
In our society, it is deemed inappropriate and generally...
The waiting game is a game of waiting
Came across a FTM that started hormones at age fourteen. Can’t help but up envy his luck of having amazingly supportive parents. Even more, I can’t help but admire how unbelievable attract the guy is, and how starting hormones at such an early age impacted his growth so phenomenally. He’s so young and has been able to live his life as the proper gender instead of contemplating...
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DADT Repeal: Bittersweet
I’m glad that DADT has now been repealed and the gay and lesbian community can now “flaunt” themselves as openly as they please without worrying about a discharge. It’s been one hell of a fight, and as common sense would have it the queers won.
However, this doesn’t mark the end of a battle for equality in the U.S. military.
For those who are unaware, DADT...
Major, double minor
As I was reading the bio on page eleven of The Advocate’s Coolest Jobs, it struck me that his job is nearly identical to what I want to do. I’d like to represent and help my queer community, work with an airline, and travel. All three of those things he did.
I began contemplating my college major, and I think I’ve finally decided. The plan is to major in Business and double...
Staying "true to you" has its cons
I’ve been readings entries on makesmethink.com and it’s started to, well, make me think. Specifically, I’ve been wondering where I would be in life had the military plan not fallen through.
In a sense, I think I may have been more satisfied with life in terms of my job and financial stability. One of the most important things I want out of my future career is the ability to...
"How does a man get a vagina?"
My father asked this in the car yesterday. Not suddenly, however it would have been much more entertaining if it had been. We were in the midst of a conversation about transgender people. It somehow began when he mentioned that he wanted to talk to me about something on the way to the airport. I told him we would discuss it then.
The first half of the conversation is lost somewhere in the abyss...
When all else fails, ignore and avoid
Crossed paths with some people I used to know while shopping today. Eye contact was not made, but I knew we saw each other. As I went about my business, I felt eyes watching me. Then I heard someone call out my birth name.
My response? Ignore and avoid.
That quite possibly made things awkward, because said people remained in my general vicinity and I felt them looking at me trying to figure out...
This was a bad idea
It’s day two of twenty-three and I already regret coming back to WI. Other than my being bored senseless despite being in a city, I’m highly uncomfortable and generally annoyed.
Having to “come out” to family that I don’t even talk to is aggravating, especially when they act as though they didn’t hear a word I said. Then, of course, there’s the issue of...
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The things I do for friends
It is now 0410, and I’m in the process of writing a ten page essay on I Am Legend for a friend. She’s been working on it for a week and has basically gotten nowhere due to various personal reasons and a lack of sleep. Tonight I was at her apartment fro six hours trying to help and she hardly completed two paragraphs. Her speech became mumbled and her eyes were heavy, so I decided to...
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The thing about old acquaintances..
Talked to my father today, and he mentioned that he saw someone I was good friends with in Wisconsin. He told this friend that I would be in town soon, and that struck a nerve because I know they didn’t use the right name and pronouns, even though they are both aware of the changes
It almost makes me wonder what people I knew before talk about me, even when they are aware of what is now...
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